All I can almost do this morning is this — reach into the Bible and give you its words and pray that they settle over your soul the way they do mine — because I find my hands shaky this morning and so many thoughts swimming, flooding my mind. I can only get out the solid word of God and seek solace and hard ground.
My family and my lovely church family is facing heart-wrenching, soul-ripping, do-we-really-believe-all-the-Bible-is-true, seek-God-and-His-voice decisions wildly today. The family I mentioned in my last note to you and the family I write about here – I still long for the family. My heart still has hope for the futures of every single one of those beautiful kids and for the parents, too. I believe for miracles. I have to because my Jesus does.
With big decisions ahead (and I am sure you have your decisions, too) I am learning how to operate by fearing God and not fearing this world. Yeah, let’s chew on that for awhile because am I the only one who has operated out of fear – fear of the world, not the fear of God?
Every day we make decisions and every day we chose to fear God or fear the world. Finances, future, friendships, family, hopes, dreams. But the Bible is clear – we have been given a unique call, an incredible spirit – a spirit not of fear but one of POWER AND LOVE AND SELF-CONTROL.
Oh Jesus, let it be in me.
“I am reminded of your sincere faith….For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands, for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control. Therefore do not be ashamed of the gospel by the power of God, who saved us and called us to a holy calling not because of our works but because of His own purpose and grace, which he gave us in Christ Jesus before the ages began.” 2 Timothy 5-9
Fear can drive most of our decisions. They can drive mine. It isn’t until I walk closer and closer with Christ, that my eyes have been opened to just how much fear entangles. It makes me protect my kids and place them in their bubbles. It drives our financial state. It drives my future. Fear can enslave. But faith – faith equips and leaves freedom and unlocks the chains.
I am striving for faith today. I am running hard and fast toward faith. I have to today because the decisions have become to great big to have one hand dipped in faith and the other in fear. It is one or the other. All or nothing.
I don’t know what this means for my family. All I know is that we will seek God. You can too in all the decisions you are making today. We can operate in power, self-control and love. We can celebrate that we have a holy callings, not because we are equipped but because He equips. And He does it all to make His name great.
Ok, God. I get it. Let me fear you over fearing the world. Let me live this life. Let me trust in you more than I trust in this fleeting world. Here I go into my day — with a spirit of power and love while stomping and crushing the crippling name of fear.
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